Ignorance.....

Ok I need to address something, while writing my blog, I caught a little bit of the new VH1 series of Charm School. If you haven't seen it, it's basically the Rock of Love and Real Chance of Love girls competing for $100,000.00. One of the girls from Real Chance of Love was eliminated. I don't know the reason for the elimination because I only caught a part of the show. But the part that caught my attention was when a few white girls from R.O.L were talking about some of the black girls from R.C.O.L and how they are "ghetto". The world ghetto is used very loosely by alot of people. I feel that it's used alot mainly towards minorities. The minute they see a minority speaking up for themselves or upset at something, they are automatically called ghetto. I'm always called ghetto the minute I say I'm from East New York Brooklyn, I don't have to do anything, people just associate people from E.N.Y Brooklyn as ghetto. I think it's stupid and ignorant to judge people in such a way. Just because people live in the ghetto doesnt mean they are ghetto. When someone minority speaks their mind, or has an argument with someone doesnt mean they are ghetto. It's disgusting to know that people can be so ignorant in this day and age. Just had to vent and share that.

Fame..

It's been a hectic couple of months with so many things going on in my career and in my personal life. Yesterday my bestie Jeremy Chu and I grabbed a quick bite to eat before going to dance class. We both always talk about how cool it will be when our careers take off. But we also talked about the disadvantages. When you're in the entertainment industry you basically give up your privacy. It's crazy because when you are famous people tend to think you are no longer human so all the normal things you do become weird, crazy and the topic of the every entertainment tv show. It sucks because I wish I could just do what I love doing and not have to take upon all the bagage that comes with this business. I'm not a fan of the whole celebrity world scene. It's all so phony and that's not what I'm about. I'm about real people and alot of people let this business get to their heads and become someone they are not. The media is always finding something bad to say. I sometimes wonder why do I want to be a part of this crazy business, but I guess I am confidant in myself and know I won't lose myself within the fame. It won't be easy to do all the normal things I do now when I blow up but I will find a balance within in all. If you don't you will go crazy. I remember when Viva Hollywood aired there was a constant critique on my weight (mind you I weighed only 123lbs at the time) The camera definitely adds pounds, I was even like wow I don't look like that in person when the show aired (lol) But the blogs went off on how "obese" I was (yup obese were the words people used lol) I didn't know I was suppose to weigh 90 lbs to be an Actress, lol. So I guess when I become famous and I'm caught eating a cheeseburger I will be crucified, or when I'm out with my best friend Jeremy there will be rumors that I'm sleeping with him, haha. I honestly will find all the stuff they will exagerrate on hilarious. So I guess I'll enjoy the privacy I have now because pretty soon it won't be the same. I don't see myself doing anything else in life, this is what I want and this is what fufills me. I can handle all the craziness that will come with it as long as I stay true to who I am. So bring it on! :)

So in love with the man of my dreams....

Love is not suppose to hurt, if it hurts too much maybe you should re-evaluate your love....one man made me realize that. I am the luckiest women in the world to have a man who loves me, respects me, appreciates me, and accepts me for me. He's amazing, I dedicate this blog entry to him.....The man of my dreams, my husband Greg.

Loving you is the best feeling in the world. I wake up everyday with one mission and that is to cater to your every need and be the one who you can count on no matter what. You are my lover, my best friend, my confidant, my #1 fan, my soulmate, my crutch, my everything. No one ever made me feel the way you make me feel since the day we met. I use to feel this was all too good to be true, but then I realized this was my blessing from the Lord, so it is real and it's everything I deserve and more. When you have a love that can't be measured, a love that grows everyday, a love that brings out the best in you, a love that completes you, you have found love. I love every part of you...mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually. My heart feels connected to yours. Your pain is my pain, your happiness is my happiness. This love has no wall therefore has no end. Without you there is no me, we've become one. It's been 4 years and everyday feels like the beginning. No one can make me feel the way you do, no one can love me the way you do, no one can understand me the way you do, and no one can ever replace you because there's only one of you and it's all I want and need.

I love you forever....

My Favorites....

While cleaning my apartment over the weekend, I came across a notebook I had a few years back in which I wrote my favorites quotes. Some are from movies, books etc. Tell me what you think of them...

-Why and how do we fall in love? And is it ever enough

-I'm waiting for you...for what?...to leave me...

-Intimacy is a lie...we tell ourselves

-Have you ever wondered what hurts the most? Saying something and wishing you hadn't? oir saying nothing and wishing you had?

-Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was afraid to let you?

-What is so good about the truth? Try lying for a change, it's the currency of the world

-You don't know the first thing about love because you don't understand compromise

-Where is this love? I can't see it, I can't touch it, I can't feel it, I can hear some words but I can't do anything with you easy words.

-If you believe in love at first sight, you never stop looking

-I love you but I'm not in love with you

-Desire is a stranger, you think you know

-Those who love at first sight are traitors at every glance

-Love is an accident waiting to happen

-Just because you're good does not mean you are for me

-Truth is a game..... you play to win

-Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't. You can't tell you heart what to feel. But you can control your heart with your mind.

Reality TV....

Reality TV has dominated television. I think there is literally a reality show about EVERYTHING! Although I am part of the reality TV family because I've taken part in one, I'm not so crazy about them anymore. Like everyone I thought it was all real. However, after being a part of one you realize what really goes into "Reality" TV and in the end not everything you see is real. I took part in Viva Hollywood because I felt being that it was an acting competition it was a great opportunity to showcase my talent. When I watched the show every week when it aired I realized how much they edited. Majority reality shows film for about a month, so if you think about one month of filming and you only see one hour a week, you could imagine what you don't see. After Viva Hollywood aired I experienced the positive and negative affects of it. I was blessed with an awesome fan base who were so supportive and genuine and still are to this day. But as always with that also comes the haters, and WOW people really go in, lol. I knew going into this business that there's people that are going to like you and people that are going to hate you, that's just how it is. But in the end no one is prepared for the negative criticism or judgements by complete strangers. We are all human so as much as you can have the "I don't care what people think about me" attitude, regardless it still hurts. More so because people are judging you without really knowing anything about you except for what is being portrayed on "Reality" TV. I dealt with it very well, I realized that I couldn't blame them for it because they are going by what they see, and I was one of those people at one point watching and making my own judgements once. I learned never to judge anyone on reality tv, basically never judge anyone in general because you don't know what that person is going through or their reasons for doing what they do. Everyone has a story and no one is perfect. We are all learning and growing each day. I also want people to know that when you are on set of a reality it is not all peaches and cream. You are not just hanging out doing whatever you want, there is alot that goes into it and the production had alot of control. The pressure is on and being on set all day and living with complete strangers can sometimes bring out the worst in you. There so much going on and it becomes this mental fight because you don't have full control of everything. If we all had a camera watching us 24/7 I'm sure the world would see things about you that you probably didn't want them to see. So my point is don't judge anyone, look at yourself first before you make judgements on anyone else.

The beginning of Jenn Pinto Pt. 2

I walked out and hugged my dad. He didn't know what happened but he was just as happy as I was. One week later I was casted an an Angel in the Broadway Play. There was about 12 angels in total. So it was like a choir. My very first audition and I got it. It was one of the best feelings in the world. Rehearsals were in Crown Heights, Brooklyn. My dad came with me to every rehearsal. He supported me 100%. The company (Righteousness Unlimited) that cast me also had an acting and dance school. So after singing rehearsal for the play, we would take our acting and dance classes. The acting and dance registration costs $200 and then it was about $80 a month. At that time my father made $7/hr working at a cemetary. My mom worked as a home attendent. The rent was $650 and then the other bills they had (light, gas, phone ect.) They couldn't afford my classes but my dad made sure he made a way to pay for it because he knew how much it meant to me. My days were long and intense but I loved every minute of it.They taught me a lot about acting. It was the first time I learned what a monologue was.My dance classes consisted of Ballet, Hip-Hop, Jazz and African. I remember saturdays being the longest days. We rehearsed four to five days a week from October to the end of November for A Christmas Carol.

Opening Night
It was the most nerve wrecking day of my life. A Christmas Carol was at the Paramount theater in Madison Square Garden. We standed in our little windows with full costume and makeup and sang our hearts out. We sounded amazing. But there was nothing compared to the feeling I felt at the end on stage when we performed our finale piece. I felt the biggest rush ever being on stage with everyone watching and applauding.

The Christmas Carol ended the first week of January that year. We were suppose to get paid for A Christmas Carol however after wards we were told that production company that produced the show refuse to pay. My dad always said that Righteousness Unlimited probably got paid and just jerked us.Despite that I wanted to continue to pursue acting and dancing. So I continued to train at Righteousness Unlimited. In February the director of the company got me a small role in a Sesame Street video as one of the children. Being a huge fan of Sesame Street I was beyong excited to take part in it.This was a non paid project but the experience was priceless.

By April my dad felt Righteousness Unlimited was costing too much. He also felt we were getting ripped off. Soon after I found out about the Backstage newspaper that is sold in the city. Backstage is a paper that comes out every thursday and post castings and open calls that are going on during the week. It costs $2.75 back then and I made sure every thursday I had my $2.75 and would hop on that train to the city to pick one up. My next step was to get pictures done but it wasn't easy because my parents were struggling with money so I promised myself I was going to get a job so I wouldn't have to ask my parents for money. The grind of Jenn Pinto was about to go into full effect....stay tuned for more