I AM FREE...

We spend our lives being told what to do, how to do it but never WHY. As a kid we go through a WHY phase which is by far the most incredible phase because you don't accept anything just cause, you want to know WHY. I got tired of pretending I didn't have questions to the things that never made sense to me. For the first time in my life I feel FREE, I no longer accept what doesn't sit 100% in my spirit. I no longer feel sorry for letting toxic people go because I learned we can only change ourselves. I no longer feel sorry for living MY truth…..….I AM FREE
Signed,
Unapologetically me

These documentaries changed my life and woke me up to a whole new world. Highly recommend taking the time out and checking them out :)

Saw this awesome documentary on NETFLIX. Highly recommend it :) 

Becoming a Vegan….

When I turned 21 years old I watched all of what I consumed in foods growing up catch up to my health and take a turn for the worst. Since I was young I always had problems with cyst in my ovaries. Like most young women you think you are super human and nothing can go wrong. I began working for Holistic Endocrinologist doing medical billing, she decide to do a hormone blood work on me……I was informed I had high cholesterol and PCOS (Polycystic Ovary Syndrome) which is when you build too much testosterone levels. Average testosterone level for a women is 25, my levels were at 95. Yes 95…..the effects of not treating it is I can grow facial hair, chances of diabetes are high, infertility and a bunch of other complications. She advised me if I let her treat me the natural holistic way she can cure me in a matter of months. She did not believe in the western medicine practices as they fix one problem and causes another problem. Also their focus is more on treating the problem, rather than curing it. She placed me on a strict diet, so juice, soda, fried foods, red meat etc was all taken out of my diet. I watched her cure many people throughout the years I worked for her so I trusted her. My diet consisted of veggies, water, brown rice, fruits. She provided me with natural vitamins. And she also introduced me to Chinese meditation CD. I followed all her instructions and within 3 months my levels were at a 25. As hard as the transition was I realized all I was use to eating was why I was always anemic, why I was always so tired, why I had all these health problems. I watched my mind body and soul transform by just my diet. I was convinced it was time to continue to on this journey. But I was young so of course I fell off track MANY times. I wasn't strong enough mentally to stay disciplined. As I got older I realized the more I fell off the more I was gonna pay for later with my health. It ALL catches up to you. I began to watch loved ones pass away in theirs 30's, 40's, 50's, from heart attacks, cancer, diabetes. It was a wake up call. People dying so young didn't sit right with me. I began to do more research on foods and how it affects our body. I realized how can I be so careless or worry about not having enough money to eat healthy when I live inside this body. This machine that if I don't maintain it at some point it will shut down. I made a concious decision to stop making excuses and change my eating habits. I decided one day at a time I'd make a change. My first thing I gave up was red meat and pork, and juice. Then a friend of my husbands challenged us to a 30 day no processed or refined sugar diet……That challenge changed my life…….My husband and I were forced to find alternatives, it showed us how as much as we thought we were doing "good" we had this addiction to sugar we were unaware of. So yeah we may have had great healthy breakfast lunch and dinner but then tear up a whole bag of airheads, jolly ranchers etc. etc. I went through intense withdrawals, headaches, irritable you name it. I would have to take naps throughout the day because the headaches were unbearable at times. After the 1st week things became easier, I began to see the change in my mind body and soul. Suddenly my taste buds started changing…..I remember cutting up chicken one day and I felt like I was ripping human flesh, it brought me to the point of gagging. I wasn't sure what was happening. I thought if anything I can still do chicken so I was shocked I had this weird feeling about chicken…..I would cook it and couldn't eat it. All we drank was water with lemon, we juiced a lot, and we ate a lot of vegetables and fruits. Once the 30 days were over we felt like new people. I knew I wanted to continue doing this, I loved the way I felt, I felt light, more clarity, I wouldn't feel sleepy after eating anymore, I had more energy. I knew right there that I wanted to transition to becoming a vegan. So I bought vegan cookbooks and 90% of my meals were vegan and the 10% consisted of my addition to cheese and I would eat chicken 2x a month only. The challenge also brought me back to meditating. I began to have intense breakthroughs in my meditations. I felt the closest Ive ever been to God. I felt a one on one connection to him. God created all we needed to live in this world, our body is a temple, its pure and we must respect and treat it as such if we truly say we love our God. We must eat to live. I realized eating healthier actually costs me less in the bigger scheme of things.  The quality of food was better and the price was less. You can go ahead and spend $8 on a mc donalds meal or spend $8 and buy a bunch of veggies and fruits. If you don't pay the price now you will pay it for your health later. Each day I learn more, I research more, I read ALL my labels in all my foods and study all the ingrediants so I am aware of what I am putting in my body. I know I still have a lot to learn and I'm excited to learn it and be more conscious of my body and the right things to make it work better. I would love to start a family soon and what better way to start then by cleaning and detoxing my body of all the waste so my future baby has a clean place to live in for 9 months. I'm a firm believer all these problems our kids have start from parents not eating properly so they already infect the baby with chemicals and waste. I refuse to fall victim to what they set up for my people the majority. At some point we must break the cycle and do better. These corporations continue to infect our foods with chemicals and inject them with hormones. I advise buy organic and research all the companies and foods. I feel the most amazing I have ever felt in my life :)

In my head….

We all have agreements we made in our lives based on what has been instilled in us as kids from our parents, family, teachers, friends etc. and what was exposed to us in the environment we were raised in. However, some of these agreements are the main cause of certain problems we face as adults that block us from progressing to our full potential. I grew up in East New York, Brooklyn. Growing up in the hood you are exposed to an aggressive environment. You are taught to survive, to defend yourself by any means necessary. Having to go underneath your desk when you heard gun shots wasn't surprising. Friends getting shot and killed was "normal". Most of the males sold drugs so the chances of dating a drug dealer was high. My parents weren't the happiest parents together lol so my home consisted of a lot of yelling and arguing. I went to school where if a girl didn't like you they had no problem putting their hands on you. The teachers like most teachers in the hood could give two craps about you, they were their for check and that was it. You had your good ones but not many. At home we ate the "regular" spanish household dishes, rice, beans, chicken, pork, steak, and platanos lol. My parents worked a lot to make ends meet. My mom was a home attendant and sometimes worked overnight shifts. My dad worked at a cementary hustled on the side by selling belts, socks in the street. By 15 I was going to school, working after school and working on the weekends. So my agreements became the following:

1. Don't take shit from no one

2. Hit or be hit

3. Eat whatever fills your stomach

4. Hustle and make money by any means necessary

5. defend yourself by any means necessary

6. Be loud and obnoxious

7. if you feel a certain way don't hold back, speak your mind

8. Only respect the ones who respect you

10. dye your hair multiple colors (lol)

11. Buy all the latest sneakers and name brand clothes so you can be "cool" and "accepted" in the hood.

12. Get Tattoos because its "cool" and "everyone" has it

13. There's no time for anything

14. SURVIVE

I can honestly go on forever lol but I'll leave it here. Due to these agreements and the many trials and tribulations I endured growing up (that's another story lol)  I found myself in my teens selling drugs, dating a drug dealer, working multiple jobs, I had a filthy mouth (I cussed so much it was disgusting), I spent money like it was going out of style to show off, I had multiple physical altercations. By my early 20's I was trying to leave the physically, verbally, mentally abusive relationship I was in, I had multiple health problems, my BMW car was almost lit on fire (yeah i woke up to gasoline all in my car), I had all this money all these fancy clothes, car yet I was so LOST. But here is one thing I never lost and that was the solid foundation my Dad built inside of me. So when my life crumbled into pieces, I went right back home to Daddy to get life back. I left EVERYTHING and walked out with $3 in my account. Although my dad had warned me of all the repercussions from my actions I had to fall on my face and learn on my own. Sucks but its usually how it is. By my early 20's I then began my journey of self discovery…here I was all these years inside all these different "characters" but when I sat and reflected on my life I realized I wasn't the girl with bleach blonde hair, purple hair, red hair….I wasn't the girl who had multiple piercings and tattoos everywhere…….I wasn't the girl with all that make-up…...I wasn't the girl who sold drugs…..I wasn't the girl who let a man walk all over them and stay because of shame and guilt…..I wasn't the girl who dressed to impress the world….I wasn't the girl who would abandon their family…….I wasn't the girl who would cuss and yell at people…..I had no idea who any of those people we're so then I asked myself Who are you?…..I had no clue. I began to find the things I did like….I liked how independent I was, I liked how I work a lot despite my "crazy" choices in life, nothing ever stopped me from making my money, I just chose to let a man control that money of mines before….I liked how me and my dad and brother had a great relationship when I was a little girl, I liked how no matter what my family always has my back when shit hit the fan, I liked the bond I built with my childhood friends, I liked to make people laugh, I liked to inspire people, I liked to dance, I liked to act, I liked to write, I liked to perform, I liked being a leader…..Through the "crazyness" I lost all the things that defined me and I wanted them back. I came to terms with myself why I made the agreements I made, I discovered the root to the problem and I made a decision to change. We can only change the things we are aware and conscious of. The more aware I became of them the easier it became to change because I know that wasn't me nor the person I wanted to become. Somehow through this journey of self discovery I have managed to create new agreements, a new way of thinking, a new swag, a new set of eyes, a new approach on life……I chose to take my strengths and build on them and eliminate my weaknesses. The beauty of all this is that each and everyday we grow, we make new agreements based on what we chose to expose ourselves to. Keep people that uplift you, motivate you, inspire you, challenge you, and bring out the best in you. We focus so much on the world and proving something we loose ourselves in the mix……Find yourself and know yourself….for then is when you can truly find your purpose in life. 

                     "Your own self realizaton is the greatest service you can render the world"

Till next time….Jenn Pinto 

AY MAMA FILMS

AY MAMA FILMS...

My film company I opened up in 2004. I put my company on hold for about 2 years to take advantage of a great opportunity I got in LA to write for a production company. However, its time I focus more on Ay Mama Films so I can start releasing my scripts I have worked on for years. So this year I'll be working on producing my first film under my own company. I'm very excited and can't wait to share it everyone. These are projects so close to my heart because its been years of writing and rewrites.  

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